me,myself n i

h1n1

2009-08-09T23:24:00.000-07:00

Fever spiking up again...guess,i need a throat swab for h1n1 dis evening

politics,politics and politics...

2009-08-09T08:18:00.000-07:00

ishk,naek berhabuk ni blog....ya ya i noe its been weeks comin to a mth since i last update...busy wif werk lah...evening,morning and morning,evening...its so tiring n sickening...i guess i've left it untouch for mths?missed my sch lyfe...it is way too diff...a great n a huge jump i guess...politics,politics n politics...too many to handle,nk heret pon tk blh lah sey...mayb its bcoz i'm werking wif a all women/lady environment?gees i cn't stand their foul mouth n how hypocrite they cn be...how sucks cn nursing politics be...oh my,oh my...

pathetic

2009-07-14T06:00:00.000-07:00

how bored my lyfe cn be?

cn someone please bring me out?its my off dae!!

werk lah bsok

2009-07-12T06:24:00.001-07:00

ok2 things did'nt went out as planned from d previous post...

1) did'nt go for d prac n evaluation coz,i've not touched my bbdc bible at all!!!how am i suppose to practise wen i don even study for it?aiyo...

2) no date wif darl dyeuh coz there's a change of plans...went out wif d bdae boy,didel,turning 20 tomorrow..happy bdae didel:) catch d transformer,geez i'm in love...its so cool...juz cn't keep my eys off the screen,not for a single second...catching it for d 2nd tyme tomorrow:)

3) done my ppa...noe wat?its juz a page n i took for abt a week to write?haha juz simply lazy n tired

4) did'nt went for d jemputan thingy coz sis in law goin wif mum,end up lookin after d two monters while mum is out for a couple of hrs

5) housework: DONE

k2 gtg nk zzZZ....tomorrow workin morning shift n, off again on tues n wed....n,i LOVE my BFREN

at last off dae!!!

2009-07-10T09:34:00.000-07:00

been wks since i last update...da naek lemau blog ni haha too busy wif work..juz finish my 10day workin wif a horrible working hours n shift...n,finally,off dae for me:) 2daes lagy hehe

Plans:

1) BBDC BTT prac n evaluation
2) out wif dyeuh mayb?
3) PPA needs to b done
4) accompany mak to jemputan???
5) housework

i miss my social life...nk keluar jgk!!!

i miss sch life

2009-06-22T03:05:00.000-07:00

i'm tired...i'm feeling shag..damn..i miss my schoolin life...d "ya-ya" preceptor will be backed tomorrow..oh my...i hate her...how ehk?alamak...

werkin lyfe...

2009-06-17T00:07:00.000-07:00

its barely 1wk..n i'm suffocating wif all the politics at work..to dis particular person,i noe i'm a new staff n i noe i'm not doin d job well...need not have to show me ur s**t face...both of us r holding on to d same role...i'm tired n so are u..haiz wat happened to d nice side of u?

seoul garden outing

2009-06-14T04:36:00.000-07:00

ward 73

2009-06-07T02:59:00.000-07:00

been nearly a week since i last update my blog..juz finish our foundation programme yesterday...
n going for this service talk thingy in HR tomorrow...
dress code: smart casual..cn i use 3/4pants pleaseeee...well,who cares?nk pakai jgk!!
mayb having dinner together wif fad,nadia,huda n hazwan at seoul grden,bugis..
pay day lah katakn!!haha geez,i'm gonna miss them...
goin back to our individual wards...d real nitemare is coming!!allocated to ward 73 which is the internal medicine ward...its a so called a multi disciplinary ward...met new n nice ppl out there...looking forward...hello working world!!!!

SGH

2009-05-30T05:06:00.000-07:00

been 2wks since we had foundation programme..but den,ward allocation still not up yet...how long must i wait?da nervous smcm ni...haiz but den,wherever they give me,i'll juz accept...i wan experience..as per normal,temp always spike up n down...tk pernah MISS k?!cm mane ni...d temp tends to spike up n down,tkde makna nye...

pay day comin..cn't wait...need to settle few stuff...

1) gettin a brooch for mum n sis in law from nadia's mum
2) collect money for hubby helmet
3) insurance n investment thingy
4) coach beg mayb?

so many things to do wif so little money...i miss my teenage lyfe..
i lost my usb wire..so,no photo updates damn...juz realise it 2hrs ago...STM kn nk buat cm mane...feel so bored at home...tkde org nk ajak keluar...ni sontoroyo,hint2 step tk fhm...geramnye!!!

2009-05-24T04:08:00.000-07:00

these are some pics taken wif my new colleague...awaiting for our ward posting dis comin tuesday...i'm way too nervous wen i think abt it...praying hard,hopefully i can cope wif d new environment...aarrgh!!

hello workin life!

2009-05-19T05:10:00.000-07:00

juz start my foundation programmes 2days ago..geez its tiring...one after another...everything seems to be in detailed..its so diff from d previous hosp..still adapting to d new hosp..wif all d gila people around me n all d munching of tidbits we had...da mcm picnic lah sey!there is a lot of things for me to learn out there...i need to be hyper,hyper than ever...

graduation ceremony

2009-05-06T05:44:00.000-07:00

1st attempt: 37.7degree

2nd attempt:37.8degree

3rd attempt:37.9degree

Dat is my temperature reading for this morning...damn...its raining wen i left home...gt caught in the rain,243W was so damn packed,d schoolboy stepped on my toe,slide left n right on my baju wif his head...aarrgh!!wat a nuisance...ain spike fever d previous nite...had to look after her till 5am in d morning...barely had enuf sleep...wat makes things worse was,i was send back home by a nursing lecturer because of my temperature dis morning...wat a waste of my trip,time n ezlink fair...no graduation for me dis tyme round...

Ain spike temperature 39.1degree dis morning...admitted to hosp in d afternoon...pity her...she juz turned 1mth todae...IV theraphy,blood taking n most painful was,d lumbar puncture..oh my...they need it for investigations...get well soon my love...

To a fren:

i did'nt noe u could be so harsh wif ur words on d previous nite...i meant well...it really break my heart...i noe where i stand n i'm in no position to say anything...u have d rite...all i wanted to say to u was,i will treasure every moment we had...will keep it as a memory...thank u for everything...perhaps,dis was juz a stop for u in life...i'm sorry for making ur lyfe miserable in a certain way whereby u've always define it...here i am,wishing u all d best for ur future,ur love life...goodbye my fren...i've already deleted ur tagged,fon...u juz name it...i will juz do wat i've been told...i respect ur decision...i will not disturb u anymore...its ok if u think dat i'm d most horrible friend u've ever had...the choice is urs...u do d thinking..we r all young adults...gd bye my fren...

congrats ah pui

2009-05-04T22:47:00.003-07:00

Congrats to my ah pui eunice coz she got into Ward 43...she is d only man standing to sign up NUH from group 4...wow!!!all d best aite...

may god bless you...

Don't feel like goin graduation day tomorrow...feelin shit due to some reasons...my heart is throbbing hard...i need to vomit out all my hatreds...

please leave me alone...

BERAMBUS LAH KORANG!!!!

juz updating...

2009-05-01T00:51:00.000-07:00

how evil cn my gfren be...fancy her for updating such a photo...aniwae,i'm losing weight rite now...i really2 wanna lose wght...juz u wait n see my evil gfren....HUTANG MASIH BLOM HABIS....my baju still stained of ur double choc....oh my,how clumsy cn she be...

To ahpui,eunice chew...wish u all d best on 4th of may...will be joining u on the 18th of may to start our new career as a nurse....halo working lyfe!

The graduation ceremony is juz few days away...i juz cn't decide wat to wear...wat a troublesome it is...

new love...

2009-04-25T01:28:00.000-07:00

hey...meet my new companion bought it at a flea market..fell in love wif dis cactus when i did my window shopping bcoz of its colour n shapes...are'nt they adorable?

full-face

2009-04-24T01:57:00.000-07:00

$960 for a full face helmet?soon,i'm gonna reach my goal...n u?a diamond ring for me in return please...

seoul garden outing

2009-04-14T23:46:00.000-07:00

went to seoul grden for lunch yesterday,had a lot of fun wif ah pui eunice n lateha,hakim...as per normal,we lost our way on the road haha coz of lateha poor orientation to the spore roads...no worries lateha u cn improve as the time goes by...juz got ur driving license rite?

To hubby Is: Get well soon...even though it is juz a minor fracture,do look after urself aite:) luv n miss ya

Nur qur'ratul ain

2009-04-11T00:02:00.000-07:00

happy 21st bdae to my darl eunice its kind of few days ago...sorry..i've got not time to upload d pic until todae...have been travelling to and fro everyday to sis place coz she juz gave birth to my new niece,nur qur'ratul ain,weighing 3.2kg at birth...to my sis,congratulation...such an adorable creature...hakim n eunice thank u for comin over to kk hosp wif ur sweet n thoughtful gift...went for pre employment checkup on thurs,eveything went well except for d stupid consultation which i had to wait an hr for it..now,juz awaiting for the uniform...

counting down the days

2009-04-05T03:39:00.000-07:00

meet up wif dyeuh @jp on which day,i cn't remember...fri?thurs?around there if i'm not mistaken..went to haagen daz...dyeuh went all pink dat day...she looked great in pink..guys,wanna get to noe her??leave ur name n email add aite.................:)

to eunice: get well soon to ur pair of twins(randall n shanon)...pity those 2 adorable kids,they've got infected with HFMD...school,do somethin pleeaasse...how cn u let them get infected oh my,oh my...where's d precautions?

i'm starting my career in nursing in a months time...geez dat was fast!!need to read up n polish up my theories before heading out to work...goin for checkup on 9th of april n will be getting my uniform by 29th of april...i'm gonna miss NUH!!cepatnye!!!aarrgh!!!

things have been goin on haywire lately,friends,families..

to mum: i won d cold war laa,laa,laa:)

i really need a break from all these...i'm not being stubborn juz dat,i noe wat i'm doin n i think its d best out of everything...

2009-04-02T02:58:00.000-07:00

Got it from dyeuh

Then....

Now....

Me & mum

lurp Her!!

thankz eh!!

me n twin

Juz random pics i've found in my phone...

dooms day

2009-03-22T07:32:00.000-07:00

Time passing by way too fast without me noticing....the day I’ve been waiting for, has finally come...kind of feeling stressed when i think about it...

what should i do?

how should i react?

these questions has been running wild in my mind as the day drawing nearer...am i juz being paranoid?n,yes,its d dooms day...after 2yrs of hiding, I’ve finally had d courage to meet them...i feel so weird... should i cry?

I’m feelin nausea

butterflies in my tummy

my feets n hands are numb n cold

its not my judgement day,its juz a gathering...geez,wat am i thinking...well,i'm lucky enuf coz my dear eunice n shanon chew is tagging along wif me...i feel safe wen i'm wif them..i have to accept d fact...i cn sense dat,i'm juz a passer by,i don't noe...mayb i think too much perhaps?

i cn't stand her sarcasm,

i cn't stand her sight,

how hypocrite cn a person be...

oh my,oh my...

plz give me strength...

i felt so miserable...

fake smile,

fake laugh...

wat have i done?i hate this feeling...plz someone,plz help me...i'm dying,suffocating wif lies n dramas...no more gathering for me...i had enough of this...its really bringing me down,down n down...

chalet

2009-03-22T06:50:00.000-07:00

Chalet

had gathering wif family on last monday till wed...we had a lot of fun coz its been years since we last had a gathering... maybe,we should do this often,rite mum?
And to my dear eunice,thankz for coming..even though i slept throghout the whole nite leaving u alone all by urself haha

2009-03-12T04:26:00.000-07:00

you will never find a love so true,as undying love i have 4 u. this love of mine,could never be matched,there's noting i would'nt do

you could point to the highest mountain,i would climb to the top with ease,you could point to the deepest sea, and i would swim to the distance shore

would do this aisyah,because its you i adore. If i reached you in the heavens, i would find a way to fly,If i had to cross, the hottest desert, then surely i would die. because only for you, i would give it a try

why does your heart grow doubtful dear,tense and beating full of fear, i keep with me your everlasting love and bless the day god sent you from above.. You remain my angel and i feel that i must tell you that within you, you have my trust. My love is the tide, your soul is the shores, you have my heart, do i have yours...

ORD liao

2009-03-12T03:47:00.000-07:00

wee!!!

tomorrow will be our ORD from nursing life!!!

baek pe!!no more politics,no more hatred n most of all,no more LIPAS!!!

feelin down

2009-03-09T08:17:00.000-07:00

its 11plus n here i am blogging...even though i'm dead beat,i still force my eyes to be wide open...i'm feelin so down nowadays...i missed my hubby Is badly...hubby,do u feel d same way as i do?haiz

to my darl atinton:
i read ur blog,i'm glad u r happy wif ur life n current boyfren..do u noe how much i missed u?y have u turned all silence?did we hurt u in some ways?or r we are'nt gd enuf to be ur fren?wats happening?only god noes...may god bless u my dear

to my darl dyeuh:
thankz for the cookies..i luv it..its super nice...really appreciate it..

they make my day

2009-03-08T04:08:00.000-07:00

My new helmet

my new helmet

i love her

Hakim & Eunice

Oreo Mc flurry

Well,meet up wif hakim n eunice on sat nite...catch up wif each others life,geez..had alot of fun...we had mcdonalds...on d same day,i went over to sungei road to survey helmet but did'nt expect dat cik sharipah had bought me a helmet...hehe thank u:) wanted to buy evo but its kind of too much coz org da blanje tk kn nk mahal2 kn haha some more,i've got no bike...at the moment,my helmet will juz be a dusty n rotting at home while waiting for angah to enroll together..bestkn!cn't wait!!!

she make my day

2009-03-05T01:57:00.000-08:00

I want HIS smell

Koh Samui,the library

2009-02-28T21:13:00.000-08:00

Koh Samui,The Library

By flight, we have to get down at the Samui Airport. After we get down, It would take around 15 minutes or so to reach the Library Hotel in Koh Samui Island from the Koh Samui Airport.

Facilities:

a 42-inch Plasma screen television set
All the televisions have cable connection
DVD player provided in the rooms
Personal computer sets which have broadband connection to browse the Internet
The air conditioning system
The Jacuzzi
Decorated with modern accessories and furniture
private bathrooms

i saw this beach resort in a channelnewsasia programme,paradise asia..well,previously,i've been wanting to go to bali for a holiday...but then,wen i saw dis beach resort,i fell in love wif its nature lookin n touch...i really hope that,one fine day,i'm able to visit this beach resort...

hweee....

2009-02-28T20:33:00.000-08:00

been days since i last update coz i'm too tired doin my nite shift in ward 64..but,i do really enjoy it coz i'm working wif helen n fatin...great thankz to my patient cubicle bed 25 to 32 coz, they slept thru d whole nite, wif no frequent n irritating call bells...thankz my dearest patients..we ordered mcdonalds on d 2nd nite...dat was soo cool coz most of the staff ordered n they r super hungry that nite...

after my 2nd nite,went over to sgh to accompany aunt for her neuro checkup...oh my,i don't noe wats happening to her,she keep on repeating d same old thing for so many times...haha...she's like a recorder keep on repeating d same old thing she's cute aniwae:)kind of worried for her coz,her small veins in the brain are blocked which may lead to stroke due to her uncontrollable cholestrol,DM and hypertension...den d doc was kind enough to explain in detail to me n my aunt all over again...now,i get a better idea of her illness...goin on for another checkup dis coming friday...

Did some laundry n housework on friday...weee,kotornye rumah...hate it...where's d teamwork to keep the house clean,neat n tidy?pnatlah sey...while doin d laundry,watch some movies from sis laptop..too engrosed wif the movie till i receive a msg from hubby Is,he's on his way to my place to pick up his b'dae present,oh my!!!i blom mandi...had a quick shower n as per normal,i'm late...i'm glad dat he loved the b'dae present that i bought for him...luv u syg:)

i donnoe...nowadays he seems to be more n more loving n tend to spend more time wif me more than usual...

On saturdae,we went over to johore to check out d neew shopping centre at bukit indah...went over to sutera mall n angsana..had so much fun coz i bought lots of stuffs for myself n my new niece...cute kn baby stuff...cn't wait to see her...bought her lots of tazmania stuff...

To my darl dyeuh: Cpat2 break ur virgin kiss,simpan lama2 pon tk guna haha

nite shift todae:)

2009-02-23T20:00:00.000-08:00

Goin on for my nite shift todae...

really lookin frward for the sleeping day n day off...

meaning 4days of resting day including weekends

Best kn...

lost my charger

2009-02-21T02:20:00.000-08:00

oh no!!!!i've lost my hp charger...i've juz realize it yesterday nite...n now,my hp batt wen dead...oh my2 i'm worried sick...i wanna vomit my dinner out...how?how?how?my hp is my life...howwww???

investigating

2009-02-19T04:14:00.000-08:00

i'm proud of myself because i have something strong in me which keeps me goin even though i've been down for the past few days...well,i did spoke wif all my cp mates on tues afternoon...geez,i felt alot better talkin to them n explaining things dat happened recently...thankz peeps i luv u all EXCEPT for lipas...thankz lipas coz u've spread d news without noticing it n u blame it on someone else rather than to blame urself...happy now?dat d news is spreading like a bacteria infection in ur body?u stinko...go n get urself cleaned up!!before i run after u wif a pesticide...get a life stinko!

1st sweetlil gd news :)
got some shocking news from my darl eunice...coz my previous sec frens seems like wanting me to turn up at d upcoming chalet they'd organize nxt mth...well,i do feel over d moon about it but i do have second thoughts...i donnoe y...juz d same old problem...fickle minded me...let me think over it guys :)

2nd sweetlil gd news:)
Receive a call from sue,sgh human resource department...i might be starting work on the 11th of may...most probably i'm goin to d chalet...kind of late though...coz she mentioned dat d overall result will be out by d end of april...by then,if i meet up wif d criteria that is being set in d employment agreement form,they will send me for a checkup and there i start my nursing career as an enrolled nurse...i did send my application form to np n nyp nursing course...hopefully,heaven's will,i will get to continue my diploma in nursing...praying hard rite now...have to work double hard now coz i'm graduating soon n need to polish up my skills:)

3rd sweetlil gd news
Hubby Is b'dae tomorrow..too bad syg u r turning 1yr older in few hours time...do enjoy ur last bits haha hope to meet u up soon...

4th sweetlil gd news
goin for my nite shift nxt wk...will be doin 2 nites at ward 64...:)

valentine's day

2009-02-14T22:42:00.000-08:00

Happy valentine's day everyone...i'm not celebrating it aniwae...duh...wats more,no date...bgos kn?haiz went over to dyeuh place yesterdae...saw ariq n get to carry him...oh my...he's like sooo mampat...mcm nk sedut2 je pipi dier...i juz love d way he is...in few wks time,i'm gonna be an aunt to my newborn niece...hopefully she weighs 3.3kg n above haha ok2 saw dyeuh v-day present to her special fren...its so sweet of her...she bake cookies n made a scrapbook...hopefully her special fren appreciate it alot...

went over to b.panjang plaza to look for dyeuh niece,shai b'dae...but den,we went over to polar coz dyeuh wanted to buy dis cake for kak linda...she bought 2 of d heart shaped cake..its really sweet coz she wanted to gave it to nana n kak linda but den,after she paid for the cake,but then she pass me 1box of the cake she bought earlier on...n gave one to me...oh my...she's like so fuckin sweet...did'nt expect her to gave me d heart shaped cake...THANKZ DARL DYEUH:)

after meetin dyeuh,went over to cck to meet aidil for dinner at novena...well,we had indonesian food for dinner...

aidil=1 mee bakso

me=1 nasi ayam penyet

drinks=4milo dinosaur,2each

additional of=another 1mee bakso

da mcm monsterkn...mkn...haha we were really2 hungry...too full to go anywhere..we took d mrt,get down at wdlds n board bus 178 home...but den,half way thru we hail a cab n went home...we were so sleepy after dinner...receive a call from darl eunice,askin me over for late nite movie wif hakim n azrul,oh my..cn't make it again...last minute plan...mayb some other time cliques...sorry peeps...aniwae,i luv my cliques :)muackz

thankz suraya

2009-02-13T03:39:00.000-08:00

i felt so much better havin a chat wif suraya...mayb perhaps,i should reconsider coz it involves my career n future...thankz for making me feel alot more better...i really appreciate it

2breakdown in a day

2009-02-12T01:41:00.000-08:00

i'm not too sure if i'm allowed to tell u all wats happening in here coz it involves my dignity...i'm too ashamed to face everyone n go to work rite now..oh my..wif her tellin everyone about it n did'nt admit it..its driving me beserk...one problem after another...n lies after another....n,one misunderstanding after another...u tell me how am i goin to face it?

hell ward

2009-02-04T02:55:00.000-08:00

well..its been only 3days in ward 64 n i'm dead tired..every morning i'll be dragging my feet down to work...geez...i don njoy it at all...bcoz of the ward sister...i guess she hates students...she've been finding the students fault..n she's treating as if its a big thing...example d doc left the chart at d patients table n wen she pass the cubicle d student in-charge will get a gd scolding from her...wat is she thinkin..its only a small thing..i guess,all of my cp mates have been marked down by her...oh my..oh my..seems like she misused her power...dat is y,her staff have been wanting to leave d ward...i guess she needs to undergo some anger management or somethin?

missy,missy..call bell!!

2009-01-28T02:33:00.000-08:00

oh my,i woke up late todae..s**t d alarm clock did'nt ring on time..had to rush n hail a cab down to nuh..oh my the taxi fare was damn expensive..luckily kakak save my day by paying for my taxi fare..thank u kakak:) swear it won't happen again...

had small chat wif eunice..oh my i did'nt realise in 6wks time i'll be graduating as an enrolled nurse...oh my how?how?how?time passes by way to fast...i've got to enjoy my last bits of being a student...oh my,oh my...

cn someone plz help me?i'm breaking down sooner or later...i guess,i should stick to my standing...coz,i've been hurt again...i took a long time to trust someone n eventually i tried n i have a lot of faith in her,but as time goes by i donnoe wat went wrong..she's pulling herself away from us...far,far,away...oh my,wat have we done wrong?no msn,no sms,no calls,no outing from u...i felt so weird i do not noe how to react wen i saw her..i hate dis feelin..its miserable...one after another oh my...i'm suffocating...pls peepz,if u cn't keep on in a friendship plz don gamble wif it..plz i beg u...

CNY outing

2009-01-26T22:54:00.000-08:00

well...as u noe...cny is on mon n tues...so i had 4days grace off from work..nice one..well last fridae we went for late nite supper aft my pm shift had n.lemak at d famous n.lemak shop at w.coast..coz twin got her first pay from her SMRT job..loaded lah sey..thankz dyja..burrrpp!!kenyang gle nye..aft dat,we went over to wcp..geez,d nite view from wcp was awsome..too bad i cn't snap a photo of the view..batt low..sedih kn..isn't it nice havin a stroll by the beach wif ur loved ones...

on sun went out wif mr aidil,he accompanied me over to sis in law place to pick up d cupcakes for sis customer,linda aft dat,went over to holland village to pass d cake to sis...sis workplace was flooded wif customer doin their manicure and pedicure before they heading off for their reunion dinner..gals will always b gals..well,who does'nt want to look on their very best on reunion dinner rite?had burger king for lunch...

We sat beside dis chi guy..he was doin dis balloon thingy wif a heart shape in it..its kind of sweet for a guy to give it to his gfren for the upcoming v-day,it seems a lil childish but the thought dat counts ritE?he thought dat me n mr aidil are an item but eventually we r not..we r cuzins!!aniwae,i got d balloon haha thank u mr balloon guy it is so sweet of u i appreciate it...went over to lot1..geez,its so quite..whenever its cny season ppl call it ghost town...it is a ghost town..bought pump shoes from cotton on..hee,d shoes was so comfy dat i cn't stop myself from removing it off from my feet haha

mr aidil n his balloon

Too many things to update...

on monday went over to dyeuh place..saw ariq he's so cute cm nk sedut2 pipi dier aarrgh!!haha accompany dyeuh n her 2 nephew..few hrs later nadia joined us..we chat for quite sometime before i head off to b.panjang plaza..poor dyeuh she's tied down wif her 2nephew...reach home at abt 8pm got to meet up wif sis...heading to kallang,to pick up man n den went to KTM...its my first time..i felt dat i'm in m'sia juz by sitting down at d platform..sooo d m'sia feelin like...did'nt buy any food coz its to cramped wif ppl...we had mcd at wcp n njoy d nite by dozing off like nobody business till 4am in d morning...now,kind of sleepy but i juz cn't sleep coz d tv programmes are a must watch prog which make me wide awake till now

juz updating

2009-01-18T05:28:00.000-08:00

well,went to jp wif darl dyeuh yesterday..window shopping for hubby Is upcoming b'dae..
still cn't decide wat to buy..d kappa tee or somethin else?i'm still considering...got to save up now...well,we had burger king for dinner yesterday n some gals talk..darl dyeuh,sometimes ur way of describing things sounds so wrong haha u noe i noe darl...

2009-01-13T17:10:00.000-08:00

I never thought that i'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, i was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl i know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that i'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think i'd never find a girl i could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now i'm sitting here thinking i messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah

By craig david insomnia

i'm rotting...

2009-01-11T02:48:00.000-08:00

i'm goin to ward 88 tomorrow..i heard the ward sister is aka mdm tan..is it true?she seems to be loud n perfectionist..hopefully everything went well for dis week's posting..

went out wif didel yesterday..we went shopping at bugis wif his ns mates,suhaimi and few other frens...he's like a clown to me..i laughed non-stop through out our outing...didel bought dis billabong t-shirt n has yellow prints on it...nice...

we had mcdonalds for dinner and head to taka to meet wan..geez dis ppl had nothin better to do but to drink their hearts out..didel wanted to bring me to dis balcony bar but i turned down his offer..i don wanna drink in front of him.. (tapi dlm hati nkX3)haha

i'm lovin it

2009-01-07T02:19:00.000-08:00

Just started the attachment few days ago n i'm down here feeling like a zombie...
too tired i guess..
Mother n child posting..geez..

d babies are cute!!i enjoyed my posting in d nursery...

had a whole lot of fun..juz cn't bear to leave the nursery...

Went to delivery suite today..oh my,at last,i've seen a live normal delivery..
its kind of amazing...wow..bsarnye kebesaran tuhan..
alhamdullilah,both mum n baby are well...baby weigh 3.0 somethin2
chubby kn baby?i'm lovin it :)

afiq first day in nursery

2009-01-02T00:09:00.000-08:00

well i had whole lot of fun todae,coz afiq went to school todae..d very2 first time he socialise wif others more than he always does..oh my..my sis did'nt shed a tears at all...shame on me...i cried when i saw him struggling n crying out loud like nobody business...malu lah sey!!!but after the 2hr session when he got released from class,the first thing he told me was, "auntie sheesha,all my teachers are very nice,i met new friends n i cn't wait to be in sch again"...

my mind went blank..i was like "WTF?wats d crying for?"and eventually,wahidah got into d same sch n same class as afiq...hopefully they may look out for each other when in school...

happy new year :)

2009-01-01T02:02:00.000-08:00

good bye 2008 n hello 2009..meet up wif dayah n naz yesterdae for countdown..but our countdown seems a little to dull haha we meet up at b.batok..actually the original plan is to chill at coffee bean but my little darl dyeuh tend to do somethin else..haha we bought drinks n chill at dis pondok..naz face was lyke so fuckin red haha mcm baru kene panggang shame on u..low tolerance for the drink..as for dyeuh she's blushing red lyke nobody business..she's cute!!haha
n me, shame on me..no effect?slow effect?

went over to kak linda's place..she's a freakin hot mama..a mother of 2,badan mcm anak dara...lawa gle lah sey!!ate 1pizza n naz ate one more...at abt 11plus i made a move..so useless of me..sleepy head..miss my bed haha by the time the clock strikes 12,i'm already fast asleep..WTF?dat sucks

at last :)

2008-12-29T00:45:00.000-08:00

its been a long,long,looonngg time since i last update my blog...firstly..thankz to my dear eunice chiew chew lee all the credits thankz to her coz she helped me change 2 times of my blogskin n thankz for helpin me...i luv u lah darl..muaacckkzz

left few more days till sch reopen..hopefully i could enjoy my sch holidaes before terms starts...

accompanied mum juz now to jurong medical centre..mum got dis retinopathy due to her prolonged n uncontrollable diabetes..felt sorry for her..d thing about her is dat,she is juz way too stubborn to go for monthly checkup...n thus,now she had to undergo dis lazer procedure tomorrow...hopefully everything will went well tomorrow..

so SicK..

2008-11-28T17:43:00.000-08:00

2more days to exams n here i am feelin so sick...got to noe dat i'm havin bronchitis inflmmation..aiyo..wat happen..

Prawn fishing

2008-11-08T23:44:00.000-08:00

Mum n family went holiday last fri..leaving me wif 3rd sis n bro in law at home..wat a freedom..went prawn fishing wif ito,ice n az till 7am in d morning..kind of like fallin in love wif prawn fishing..mayb i may adopt it as sports fishing as a new hobby?maybe perhaps..:) but for sure,i may not be consuming d prawns!its smells so fishy n juz imagine..

u saw d prawn at d pond next moment,u caught it n place it in d net,wash d prawns,n next moment its on d fire n DEAD!!i juz cn't accept dis culture of fishing..n more,u r consuming it!!eeeeuuwww!!!gross!!at least,d thing is already dead and u did'nt saw it alive before its dead..aarrgh!!watever it is,it all depends on urself..but as for me,a big NO NO for me...

i'm getting used to ice n ito..they r a gd bunch of friends..kind of lucky to have one :)but, i'm at lost coz i missed d outing wif atin n dayah on saturday..supposingly,should be goin to sentosa but 3rd sis spoil everything..askin me for loan after she got to noe from dad i've got few bucks wif me..don take advantage cn?n she left me doing all housework by myself n,i need to cook lunch n dinner..how am i able to cope?housework,overnite thingy?its better if i stayed all alone by myself..they r kind of like invisible for me...n now,my body's aching like nobody business..sakit la sey!!aargh!!

3more weeks left to final module exam...kind of worried..wif lots of projects n test in 7wks..its madness!but i'm kin of missing my friends coz after the exams,we'll be goin seperate ways...haiz..miss korang2 la!!

down wif flu,fever n asthma..

2008-11-02T01:37:00.000-07:00

aargh..been 4days since i'm down wif flu,fever n asthma..perhaps too busy wif sch without havin enough sleep..asthma gettin bad..need oral tablet ventolin..require it every now n then...wat happen lah sey!!!saw mr mathi..missin him badly..wtf??missin npcc officer?he's great,love his character..
onco project down,aids project down..left behavioural sci project..headache2...
mum n dad goin holidae dis wkend..left me n 3rd sis at home..wat a freedom haha
cn't wait for this wkend..lookin forward for it...:)

i'm feelin bored

2008-10-25T00:02:00.000-07:00

i donnoe wat happened to my tool bar..went missing n lost somewhere i guess..but the weird part was,when i log in to another comp there's toolbar..WEIRD!juz hate it..
Been busy wif projects and sch stuff,its way too tiring..1project down..left 2major projects n 2minor projects..hopefully,it will went smoothly..

Bought 2mag in one day..i'm juz getting dry n bored down here..receive a call form eunice yesterday,she asked me out for movies wif hakim..juz not in d mood n more,i'm tired..sorry darlin to turn ur down ur offer..mayb i'm juz being a sleepy head..

i donnoe wats happeining around me..old gfren seems to be lying on me..why should she?geez..its frustrating..i juz don be bothered..plz,plz...don't bother me anymore..with or without ur presence,does'nt make any diff to me...its so frustrating...

Missy OUTING

2008-10-24T05:46:00.001-07:00

fun~

its all over!

2008-10-22T03:59:00.000-07:00

Seems like the nitemare i had 2yrs ago have not been moving away from my life..its over..y must this ppl rake old things up?haiz..did'nt they had enough of it?these ppl are such a nuisance...plz ppl,ITS OVER..i noe i must have offend u ppl in some ways but this is me..but,as far as i am concern,if i were to blow of my top,i have a very strong reasons to do so..n, plz don create LAME reasons..e.g, 'u r not invited to our hari raya gathering because u blow of your top juz because i did'nt want to tag along wif u for recess' ??wat the hell this ppl thinkin?its 2yrs ago..we are all adults,pls,at like one..watever k peeps,juz say watever u want to say..i cn't stop u from talking..all i have to do,is to listen,swallow and avoid..

sorry,sorry tk abis!!

2008-10-21T00:25:00.000-07:00

I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU

COZ U KEEP ON SAYING SORRY

TO ME FOR NO REASON

OVER AND OVER AGAIN

Holidays! :)

2008-10-19T01:44:00.000-07:00

Got to noe from mum dat,we'll be goin to malacca n port dickson for the upcoming november..where on earth am i goin to find time to squeeze in dis wonderful holiday wif my family?unless,its after my exams...well,hopefully,mum goin during my school time because no one will be around..all of my family members,be it,my bro,sister,in-laws,all are tagging along for this trip.is'nt it great?no one around?all by urself in s'pore?no one to nag..n stuff..i juz love it..hang out till morning on my weekends..i juz love the feeling..but on the other hand,i'm may losing out alot of stuff.. :(

watever,juz let mum decide everything..i'm fine wif anything :)

*i'm a fickle mindedperson juz let mum decide everything..

i hate people who keep telling me,I'M SORRY over n over again...people,may i noe d real definition of sorry?coz ppl tend to misused the word 'SORRY'...

Insomnia

2008-10-18T05:31:00.000-07:00

First week in campus,TIRING!!travelling thru and fro from boon lay to simei each day..cn't belive dat i've actually endured for the past few months..time passes by too fast..n dis nursing course is ending soon..next yr march..graduating..n,working life starts!!nitemare!!feel so n way too old..i've not yet enjoyed my school life just yet!i'm gonna missed it badly..haiz!

Got into oncology for my elective module...i'm enjoying it...how amazing our human body works..i've learnt to loved myself more..than i usually does..

End of week 1 in campus..too many projects to be done in soo little time..left 6more wks to go..
i'm trying my very best to love n endure what i'm doin rite now :)

my 19th b'dae

2008-10-13T23:15:00.000-07:00

Thankz ppl for the hari raya outing on my b'dae..kind of weird though meeting u all for the first time..but it turns out to be fine..juz fine..guess,i need to socialize more than normally i used to..not being arrogant or something,juz dat,i do not noe how to start a conversation..dats all..but i appreciate it alot..for wat u guys did..renting a school bus..havin karaoke session,gossipping around and all...luv u guys :)

SPECIAL THANKZ TO: atinton and dayah thankz for the tazmania doll:) i love it..n,not forgetting my dear eunice..i'm sorry darling

hari raya lah sey!!!

2008-09-27T20:30:00.000-07:00

Left 2more days to hari raya..and i'm like an old maid down here..aarrgh!!blh gle la sey!!have been doing spring cleaning for the house since for the past few days..this year raya will be a special one because,there's a new member in the family :)..welcome abg dan!!hopefully this year hari raya will be more joyful than the previous one..

Penat la sey!

2008-09-23T22:39:00.000-07:00

Its been days since i last update..kind of busy though..raya's just around the corner..not busy wif spring cleaning but busy wif SHOPPING..best kn haha had so much fun wif my sweet lil choc honey muffins of nursing frens..went to iftar on 22nd of sept wif attachment friends..at the same time,its a farewell outing for our dear nabil whom leaving us,NUH group4..we'll be missing you,nabil.. :) and belated b'dae celebration for atinton n naz..i had soo much fun dat nite thankz peepz

Next day,went to johore wif my study group frens..tiring day coz,went to 3shopping centre in one day..i and zas shop till we drop..no parents,no siblings..a great freedom we had yesterday..bought lots of stuff..hopefully,our next trip to KL will be much more fun.. :)

hola to new day :)

2008-09-19T20:58:00.000-07:00

hola..its been a whole new day eversince the nitemare..well i guess i've really got over him totally before eunice mentioned to me about dat thingy..well its all over.i feel gd after knowing the truth..thankz aniwae..
Today,i'll be packed for the day..helping out my aunt at the bazaar..its a brand new experience for me aniwae...will be goin over to geylang after d bazaar thingy with aunt..thank you lao pan niang..
got to noe aril aka popie aka ayie is my cousin..nice one..
i guess that should all for today :)

my new skin blog :)

2008-09-18T22:06:00.000-07:00

thankz for the credits eunice i love u :)
my itchy irritating hand caused everything..sorry for the trouble eunice..
lots of things happening around me rite now..juz wanna get out from it..but how?
i got to know this from eunice..i'm kindda sad n feelin down rite now after i got to noe about it..my hands are trembling rite now..should i scream?should i cry?

but i'm in no position to say anything..its been two pathetic yrs..meaning,all this while i've been clapping one hand..and i guess i'm such a fool..why should i carry on when someone is not carrying d torch together wif me..i regret,regret n regret...

now..my aim is to carry on wif my life..my life as a normal gal..no more dreams,no more carrying torch for him,no more shits,no more craps..i HAVE TO MOVE ON..i HAVE TO..and i guess,NO NEW RELATIONSHIP for the time being...

sheesyah feelin down today :(

2008-09-17T01:18:00.000-07:00

its been days since i last update..many episodes of unhappiness have been going around me..
kind of sad though...but life have got to move on..and now,i'm moving on wif my life...my life as a single lady..still lookin for her mr.right..must be sleeping somewhere i guess..
gd bye my crush n old flame..i'm juz clapping wif one hand not both..so,don waste my time...
watever lah boy!!

juz finish d BCLS thingy..so stressful..so maany things to do in sooo little time..finishing d CR wk within few days time..i'm lookin forward to it..its resting time!

aarrggh!!i cn't type anymore...i'm really feelin down rite now..i juz cn't express it...

juz updating...

2008-09-04T06:04:00.000-07:00

School life:

its been days since i last updated...been busy lately...

got to finish up the clinical skills,madness...

i hate the logbook...

tomorrow will be the last day for 2.1 posting...left 1more module to go..

will i be able to make it through?(hope so..)

next monday,will be in campus training..2days for BCLS..

i've not been revising anythin and i don even noe where's the book?

(wat the hell?)

die2 got to read up this weekend..

my love life:

its been yrs but i still cn't get over him..i've asked mygfrens for opinion

and all answers given are about similar...

i juz don't have the guts to confess to him..

y?because i saw his friendster comment..i guess,he's attached rite now..

mayb i should juz move on..and make newfriends...get him out from my mind..

i'm trying my best though..

i got to noe dis guy not long ago..he's 8yrs older than me..

he's nice,single,adorable,matured...etc2

but when i view his profile and saw his bunch of friends..

i ask myself am i up to him?or to his friends?i'm juz 19yrs old..

myself esteem is goin down the drain..aarrgh!!!

how?wat can i do to make myself positive?haiz..

BENGANG la sey!!

my girlfies:

to azura, i'm praying hard for you..its been tough for u to go through the situation

rite now..feel sorry for u..be strong gal..love ya..

enjoying my day everyday..wif me surrounded wif my gfrens..

i juz love them..they make my day..atinton,i miss u lah sey :)

love u galfrens :)

thankz love: dayah,fahara,eunice,rafidah,atinton,azura

afifah,wahidah...i'm sorry if i did'ntmentioned ur name :)

2nD Day Wif My BaBy BLog

2008-08-30T22:05:00.000-07:00

i had so much fun today...

went to mcdonald for breakfast wif crazy nue and d three little monster..

not forgetting,my gfren fidah...

they make my day..i love them :)

i juZ cn't ReSist it,iTs aDDicTive

2008-08-30T06:19:00.000-07:00

one after another, i guess i'm starting to get addicted to this :)

to my dear eunice...

i guess u have to be strong to undergo this situation..

u r a great person.its juz dat,he's blind i guess...

don worry to much dear...

and to myself...

i'm still trying to find a solution to my love life...

should i confess? or should i not?

aarrgh..

this is frustrating...

why am i too stupid?back then..

fancy choosing didel over him..

i'm sorry...

i chose the didel not you...

and now i'm regretting...regretting all by myself

peeps,am i blind or somethin?

i would love to confess to him for the second time..

but i juz could'nt bring myself to it..

i'm too scared...too scared to face the reality, i guess...

its a total nitemare for me...

or maybe, i'm too worried...

worried if he may turn me down...

wat should i do?

confess?or keep myself silence till miracle happens?

HELP!!!

My 1st Baby poSt :)

2008-08-30T05:33:00.000-07:00

hola peeps,i juz create a new blog for myself coz i guess i need some space to vent my anger,sadness n so on to something..i guess this may be the right place..(hope so):)

i may not update every now and then but i'll try aite..

special thankz to:

eunice chew>>>i love u very stronglah hahaha